Firstly, unbelievable to all, 4E got into the finals for 16x200. That's a miracle I think. Well, we weren't such a bad class...i mean...people are getting more used to each other now...though it's a bit too late, but it's better than never.
Very tired these few days. My eyes are starting to get irritated by the eyewash given to me. Then there's this SARS thing...and everyone's talkign about social responsibility. Only now. Can you believe it? I thought it is suppose to be something that we practise everyday, even without those harsh measures by the government. Ironic.
Hope you are feeling a bit better now. Talking to her certainly make things much more clearer in your mind, doesn't it? My recommendation is not wrong, right?
Then there's this someone who is rather strange...kept me in suspense...suddenly said he know the answer liao...then sounded like so serious. Don't really get those hints...maybe I'm too tired to get my brain working. Haiz. Hope it's not something bad.
Had the first CO practice after the SARS incident...well...guess everyone's just not in the right mood yet, including me.
I don't know what to do. I've thought over it last night...this morning...and maybe even later. Maybe it's partly my fault. Heaven isn't such an easy way out...is it? The path certainly isn't smooth...it's harsh. I tried to help, and I don't wish that my help has caused more trouble. Who in this world don't ever need to make decision? So what if the decisions I made are all wrong...that I gave up on the easy way out...trying to find trouble for myself? I don't know...you think about it yourself. I don't want you to think I'm being such a moronic busybody...when I'm just merely trying to help. So what if I sounded a little too harsh...because I want you to go through all that obstacles yourself...and...it makes me wonder sometimes whether it's just right of me...
You know...it's not fun trying to guess what others are thinking. The promise...you certainly have not remember it...I don't expect you to do so...like what I said...I don't expect anything. It's pretty obvious now i think...but still...it's your own choice...what do you expect me to do...
Once again, that strong feeling...fear? sadness? depression? I don't know...just that...it seems to tear me apart everytime...this time...the feeling gets stronger. Maybe one day...it'll get so strong...until I cannot take it anymore.
I hope that won't be the case...but I don't know.
Oh...and I don't expect anything from anyone. I don't want to expect anything...in case I'm disappointed...than I'll feel so hurt.
Cos my expectation failed once? And I couldn't get over with it since then. Yet this time...I guess I made the same mistake.
I need to be alone to think about it... Do i really want it that way. Alone...just a powerful word.
Haiz...i'm disappointed...with someone I should say. Never failed to learn his lesson. So what can I do?
And homework's pouring in all of a sudden...yes...last minute...and those teachers expect us to finish them? Can't they assign those homework last week? Why must they do it only NOW? Never mind. Like what Damain said...I'll finish all of them.
Busy doing homework now. Great sense of achievement. I self-studied magnetism, electromagnetism, plant reproduction, germination, settlement, resources, s'pore and hong kong housing, loci and construction, metals...but do i really understand everything? Hmm...guess I need some assessment to tell me so. And naifen...I have YET to finish everything. Haha
Well, I'm changing this layout again...I really like it though...because of the butterfly up there...and the blue...sho nice...but since someone claims that it SUCKS...and that the blue is too dull...guess I'll have to change it to please HIS eyes. No lar...He thinks I got a lot of time mah...can come up with a new design and webpage...he thinks this is merely coping other people's layout mah...so I guess I'll waste more time on this lor...if this is wad pleases him...haha. Nvm lah.Guess I'll do it for MY own sake as well...
Well, it isn't too bad to be blind sometimes. Of course, there will be this fear, because you now lose one of your senses...but somehow your other senses become much more stronger...and your mind becomes clearer. It's nice to lie on the bed with that stupid blindfold on...because I've thought over so many things...something you won't have time to think about usually. You get to recall what you've done over these years, those nice memories...as well as those bad ones...of course, youg et that special care from your family as well...=]
So, there, a new layout. Thought of changing my layout...but there seems to be no idea in my mind now, so I'll use a design by others and modified it...I kinda like this blue...it makes me feel very calm...the picture...it's so nice. Well, see that little Ying-Yang pic up there? Put your mouse over it. I don't exactly know what to put there yet...will come up with ideas soon.
Well...apologise kae? I know it's not your fault...but...I'll tell you the reasons some other days.
Arrgg...Mr Ng is so cruel...two tests and RATs when school reopens? And considering I haven;t really revised both topics....I'll start tomorrow I guess.
So let's see...so far I've got:
English: 1 compo, 1 compre (I finished both) Chinese: Tingxie, Compo (Interestingly, I finished both too...) Chemistry: 1 metal worksheet (Three cheers for Mrs Sow!) Physics: Self-Study Topics, Test to study, 2 worksheets (Ha...I finished all of them!) Biology: No homeowork, just read up on Plant Reproduction (Three Cheers for Mrs Har too) Maths: Probability Exercises from TB (That's so unlikely of him to not give any homework...) SS: 1 Workbook assignment (Yeah, I'm halfway through it...) Geography: TESTS!!! RATS!!!! (Nvm...that won't affect my die-hard interest in Geog!)
Haha...guess you guys won't be too interested in my homework anyway. I'm just too nored? That now the 'school hols' is extended for another week. Oh, and don't ask me whether syf is postponed...it's common sense right? Just to tell you guys, that person said we'll be ensured at least a week of practice before the actual competition...
Oh and I'm deeply in love with this CD that I just bought...The Gu Guan Ren's CD. My god, their tanbo is....extremely good?! It's like...so nice...Rate: 4.5*****/5. Didn't regret buying it!
Oh, and I'm becoming a emb freak...checking the emb like more than 12 times daily?
Well, had such a nice chat over MSN with so many people that day. CO's...Primary School's...Class...Haha...seldom am I so engaged in chats...well, maybe I'm just too bored...can't really think of anything to do...
April's Fool joke...leave me out...I'll never crack a joke again on April's Fool. Sometimes jokes just go too far...and brew trouble?
Well, down with a high fever...hope I can recover before school reopens...no wonder....have been stuffing myself with chocolates, durians and all the heaty stuff.
Haiz...quite contented with what I've done over this holiday...though I've been complaining to everyone that I'm bored. Let's see. I managed to finish studying for Physics and Chemistry, finish all assignments, study for Biology, revised my sec3 test papers, packed my table, filed my things, practised ruan everyday for at least 2 hours (except yesterday and today), watched the video recordings over and over again, spent more time with my families, get to eat more, explored the whole of ivle to finish up all online quizzes, and chatting with many people over msn....wow...so many things done...
I don't know whether I'm right. Maybe, maybe not. Searching deep inside your heart is such a painful process, you'll have to discover and face so many thigns you don't want to, and at the same time, you have to bear with all that emotional setbacks...but we all have to learn to do it no matter what right? Isn't knowing what we really want and how we really feel the most important thing before making any decision? The heart tells the truth, the mind may be blinded by false truth...but at the same time...doing things without thinking...will it cause trouble? Do we follow our heart or our mind? I hope you understand what I mean. Emotional struggles, I can't help you witht hat. I would very much want to...but like how you feel sometimes...I'm helpless, because the only person who can fight that is yourself. I can only guide you along, let you discover yourself, but the discovery journey has to be travelled on by yourself. Isn't that what you've always told me when I'm down? Use that fighting spirit of yours to stand up again...haven't you fight through it once...only less than a month ago...and you tasted that fruit of labour, didn't you....you got that outcome as a bonus...didn't you? Others are asking you to grow up...to be more mature in your thinking...maybe after you search through your soul you will grow up more....Confused? Or Lost?
